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The Truth About Me & IBD: Part One

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Anyone with IBD – whether they have Crohn’s disease or ulcerative colitis, whether they have a stoma, a J-pouch or all their insides intact, it doesn’t matter, we’ve all been in a situation where we’ve wanted the ground to swallow us up at some point, right? I mean, IBD is super embarrassing. It’s undignified. It’s painful, it’s disconcerting, it’s destructive, it’s stinky, it’s even more embarrassing than it was five seconds ago when I first typed ’embarrassing’. It’s a truly horrible disease. While our friends and family might be supportive of those of us inflicted with rotten insides, they will never truly get it.

One of the reasons that people don’t understand what we go through is that we probably don’t actually tell them. I mean, not in detail. That’s because the details are pretty grim and most of us (myself excepted) are too polite to talk about what’s going on within our intestines, never mind what comes out of them. So here it is: part one of a ‘this is the truth about you, me & IBD’. Feel free to share the link with your nearest and dearest. You might find they no longer find it weird that you cancel social activities at the last minute, or ask more questions than an SS interrogator when deciding whether or not to go to the zoo or out for lunch. Who knows, you might even get a biscuit out of it.

Brace yourself, for your bottom is about to become public property
No word of a lie. When we see our gastro consultant, not only do we have to be frank about how many times a day we go to the toilet and whether or not our stools are actually stools (or more like stagnant pond water, which is how I’ve described my ‘output’ in the past) we also have to put up with rectal examinations on a regular basis. I must have heard the line ‘OK Juliette, please draw your knees up to your chest and try to relax’ more times than I care to remember. Try to relax? You’re about to insert a plastic tube up my backside and INTO MY INTESTINES, you’re not handing me a cappuccino and a Vogue menthol. I am literally as far removed from relaxed as is possible right now. UGH.

Bring me this if you want me to relax, maybe

Bring me this if you want me to relax, maybe

I always say, ‘This is horrible for me. I mean, REALLY horrible. But you went to medical school for, like, 45 years and your reward is to spend your days sticking your fingers up diseased bottoms all day long. Er, you lose!’

You will ALWAYS need the toilet at the most inconvenient time
A few months after stoma surgery I went on ‘holiday’ to southern Ireland. I say ‘holiday’ in inverted commas because it was cold, wet and the food was so dreadful I thought I’d gone back to the seventies. Still, my boyfriend and I were staying in a nice little bed and breakfast place, so it wasn’t all bad. Or was it?

There I was, gaily helping myself to muesli, toast and orange juice at 9.00am before we set off on a nice drive through the countryside. An hour later and we’re halfway up a mountain when I suddenly feel a warm, heavy sensation in my groin, as though a cat has just climbed onto my lap.  I look down and see that my ileostomy bag is about to explode. ‘My bag’s about to explode!’ I said, in a panic, ‘Stop the ruddy car!’

We pulled over and I crouched down and emptied my bag behind a rock while my boyfriend busied himself looking at trees and stuff. I heard a ‘baa’ sound and looked up to see a flock of sheep giving me the stink eye.

'Excuse me, you can't do that here!'

‘Excuse me, you can’t do that here!’

When you need to go, you need to go, and I’m still surprised that the bag didn’t just fall off, so weighted was it with semi-digested oats and soya milk and toast and flipping raisins. Ugh.

muesli

This stuff weighs a TONNE when it’s wet – who knew?

A few weeks later I was in the toilet at a rock ‘n’ roll club when the power went off.  I was midway through emptying my ileostomy bag and no, I did not have a torch in my pocket and no again, I could not use the torch facility on my iPhone because it was 2002 and no such thing existed. To add to the fun, I had just noticed that there was no toilet paper. I sat in the pitch dark for 25 minutes with my bag dangling between my thighs, my dinner gloop slowly dripping into the toilet bowl until someone got the back-up generator working, I yelled for assistance and someone else brought me some toilet paper.

I should wear toilet roll as a hat, then I'd never be without it

I should wear toilet roll as a hat, then I’d never be without it

I now take tissues wherever I go, even in my own house. Better safe than sorry, right? Oh, and my boyfriend was annoyed because he couldn’t find me (one can’t help but think that he didn’t look very hard). Good times!

That’s enough for now. Coming up in part two: a hole in the ground is NOT a toilet, OK?

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